I want to leave my husband but i am scared for my life
I am 38 years. I met my husband in 2010. I am a hindu and he is a muslim. We have a very good relationship where he gave me freedom to practice my own religion. He asked me to convert and get married as his family will not understand our adjustments of following our own religions. To make them happy i took this step which i regret the most. Everything was fine at first and then started abuse and beating very often. It could be due to any reason. I had a daughter in first year of marriage but she could not survived and died within in 1 month. We again tried and i had a miscarriage. This put so much fear in my heart that i did not wanted baby. Then my mother in law and sis in law started fighting with me on various topics. Due to which i requested my husband to live separately. He is not from a well to do family anf i assured him that i will support him financially. Somehow we managed to work this out but abuses and beating and degrading was still there all the time. Now things are getting so bad between both of us that we haedly talk to each other and whenever we talk it end in him beating me with anything he can find be it belt hanger stick remote shoes. I have stopped making physical realtion with him since 7 to 8 months. Because i feel if he can not act as a husband i cant act as a wife. Also he dont take any reaspnsobilty of the home. I earn really well and i pay all the bills of the house. He sometimes give money sometimes not and every now and then take money from me which he never returns. I am fed of this life. I want a safe place for me now. But i am scaredfor my life as i feel he can kill me as he said multiple times in agression that he will kill me. Is there any way where he leaves me on his own so that my life can be spared.