Husband filing divorce

My husband left the rented house we were living in a month back over a fight which made me feel suicidal and I texted him saying his mother is responsible for my death because he deserted me. I m muslim and he is hindu. I left my job in qatar airways as airhostess and came back last year to live with this guy. He sent me legal notice next day saying if I or anyone related to me try to contact him he will take legal actions. I spoke to his lawyer so he told me not to contact him and decide what I want from him. His lawyer asked him to call me once but on call he was very brutal and i recorded that call. I begged him to come back and told him about my financial condition because i left my job my family everything for him but he said I am responsible for this. Last fight was because of his family and his mother cursed me on call and i asked him to take my stand but he refused and left the house. I asked his lawyer for time but now he is also not answering my call. Moreover they are trying to file divorce based on cruelty because of suicidal threats to him. However I have proof of him doing the same many times. Now i have been forced to get out of the rented house and he has already takeN his clothes. He told me to vacant the rented house by 15 dec now i dont have money or anywhere to go because I bought everything In that house and he wants me to take it away. I spoke with few lawyers They told me to wait for any legal notice for divorce petition or anything. So far I didn’t receive but I am expecting them to do this in near future. I need to know whether divorce is possible if its just one month of living separately. I don’t want divorce i want to reconcile then what should I do. I am completely dependent on him for everything and when i asked him for money to survive he told me he will not give anything he will drag me to supreme court. How should I go about this and how should I be well prepared? He has few messages where I threatened him to die because of his actions and abandoning me all the time. How can I say that it was because of fear of loosing him and not trying to mentally harass him.