Domestic violence

I am married for almost 5 years now. I knew that my husband was alcoholic even before marriage, but after marriage he continued to drinking and I used to be upset and react by getting angry with him which used to provoke him and get very angry with me push me around and abuse me verbally one such time he had cornered me kept abusing me verbally and said “ It’s not like I have raped you” I donno I felt very bad and I slapped him till that time he had not slapped me but verbally abused and thew things and damaged things and just pushed me around he had not slapped but I think I provoked him that day and after slapping him the barrier was broken he slapped me multiple times and hits me around pushes me etc… I have not consummated the marriage initially I was scared he never forced me , later even he used to say that he is not in this marriage for sex. I when to couple of psychiatrists to understand why I am so scared to have sex. I am little lazy at times and keep my things messy and get up late when I don’t hav to go to work and all. At the same time I have worked multiple jobs to make money. The point is he keeps saying m not disciplined person and when he hits me wen he is drunk says I deserve this? Is it my mistake ? Can he sue me coz I haven’t had sex with him or coz I am not an ideal housewife? But I have never done anything bad apart from not having sex. Please suggest.